Being home.

Being home gives you a lot of time to think.
Yesterday while waiting for my friend Lorna to get onto Facebook so that we could play our favorite game, UNO, together, I spent some time reflecting. I became overwhelmed with emotion, just thinking and then imagining what it was like to be there at Jesus' birth, to hold the tiny but all-powerful King of the world, the savior, in my arms.

And as I sat there in all struck wonder, I continued to think. Never in my wildest dreams could I imagine that I would be where I am today. This is my life.
I never could have imagined...

• that I would have friends 5,000 miles away- and not just any friends. Some of the best friends that I've ever had.
• that I would have such tranquility in my heart knowing that God is capable of handling and doing all- I just have to go on living my life for Him and the rest falls into place when it is right.
• that I would be getting ready to head back to Chile again for another 5 months.
• that home is such a relative term- home is where you find love of friends and family, it isn't necessarily a concrete location. A house is concrete, home is something that holds your heart and doesn't let go.
• that you can't always tell you heart what to feel or where to go.
• that it is possible for me to live in another country and find contentment.
• that I have many things about me I still want to change.
• that life after next semester scares me slightly- while God has it all under control, I still have attachment issues.
• that I love speaking Spanish.
• that patience is a virtue all should learn.
• that some things are not in our control.

And as Lorna told me,

"debes aceptar lo que estas sintiendo y guardarlo en tu corazon"

You should accept what you are feeling and hold it in your heart.

Bring all to God in prayer. And accept what you are feeling. Its life. Its beautiful even in the rain. That's what I'm learning.

My heart is full.
There is something out there for me. I just have to wait and see :)