Houston, I have hit a low point.

Everything is fine. I'm just in a really strange mood today. I think culture shock is getting the best of me. I think seeing Profesora yesterday made things hard because I really didn't get to see her for very long and then they left. And I was looking forward to seeing her longer. I don't know. I'm just lonely. I miss being able to be with friends all the time. My host mom is really protective and wants to know where I am/ what I'm doing at all times, which is fine because she really cares but I'm just not used to it. I want to go out and be with friends and explore the city but she didn't seem to like the idea. I just miss independence. I feel like a child again but it is just something I have to get used to. I can't hang out with my host brother at the moment because he is sick so I'm just stuck. I feel lost. But I'm just adjusting. And I'm tired and tired of speaking in Spanish and not knowing what is going on. I want to hang out with people! But I"m just taking it one day at a time. I love my classes and I'm excited to go to the youth group (I've heard so much about this church so I'm ready to experience it for myself--the ISA program director goes there too and she told profesora, Hillary, and I how much she loves it so that's good!) And I"m just ready to start my volunteer placement in July. It'll give me something to do. I'm just so lonely and I love my family here but I want to see different things I want to talk to other people. I love that they care about me and make sure I am happy and comfortable and I just need to adjust and things will be ok. Tomorrow I want to buy a new cell phone so that I can feel happy. I just want to be and to live. Its an experience. I mean I miss you guys and wish I could talk to you without crying but for some reason today has just been rough. I think things are hitting me that I"m here for the next 6 months. I just want to see someone from home. I just need to adjust.